Little update: Still sick~ At the end of my medical treatment. I am happy that after this week medicine, I will have finished my final and fifth set of medicines. It is depressing to go thur that much pills for the whole month. That’s why cherish the healthy days, my friends. Heath comes and goes without any sign. And don’t need to worry about me. I will be fine. I am going to wait for the medicine effect to goes off and will be back on the detail check up again. (Most importantly, I won’t die even if it is the worst scenario. I will just have to cut of *something*. <and please respect me by not asking more and not advertise to ppl who know me.>)

Little realization: For the past half a year, I have totally retired from relationship. Family & friends are actually started to worry about me. Some encourage me to look again; some warn me about being single forever. Yet, I have this very firm belief in my heart. If I have to give in so much every time in a relationship for the small amount of happiness, then why do it. Every lesson I learned were pain overweight the joy. I really have enough.

Reality is I don’t have health. I am still struggling with my career. I still have a bunch of issues to solve out with my family. There is just so much on my plate. Especially, I am weak. I seems to lost the bravery to face betrayals in friends & bf. I lost the faith to trust. I partially hollow my heart and my mind. It sound bad to some, but to myself, I am actually very happy. I really enjoy this kind of peace. Peace in mind & Peace in my heart.

I just hope one day people who really care abt me will understand why I choose to be myself for this precious peace in life. <& don’t keep on telling me horrible stories abt being alone or push me to know their friends or introducing guys to me…> haha~ Love to end with humor~

 got into a big fight with someone important. I realize it is not about working hard in life... working hard is not enough. People will only focus on results, not effort. The more efforts you put it will only make you look more incapable.

Am I a fool who just put too much effort into my weakness? or am I stupid and worst than other? What defines stupidity and intelligence? I am confuse.

Just read this good article. Funny, but it is soo true.

古代女人那一套，是很適合現代女人使用的。

那就是，明知男人會對女人不好、明知男人一定娶妾侍、明知男人會因為你無仔生而休妻、明知男人一定會嫌你年老色衰。

知道嗎？現代女人對愛情和婚姻的獨佔性和期望，根本與男人的天性不吻合。男人累積了千萬年的大男人本性和作風，不會因為社會進步而消除。

你的丈夫有外遇，你就立刻大受打擊。換了是古代女人，她就不會當作是一回事。現今的女人容易不開心，是因為社會給予女人太多權力，同時候，男人無法配合這些女人的新權力。

好吧，發生了外遇事件，換了是古代女人，她會怎樣做？古代女人一定會使出十八般武藝，好好俘虜身邊男人，出盡全力做個一百分妻子。古代女人一定不會嫌棄他，也不會死心眼記住舊事，古代女人才不會做些鬥自己氣的無謂事。

你記住，花心是男人的天性，你信任他又好，不信任他都好，他都會心癢癢。

與男人相處，先得接受男人的天性。要不然，無論你嫁誰，都一樣辛苦。

深雪

wa~~ Haven't update for soo long. It has been 4 months. (well... 5 months coming la...)

Jan: Started a new working life~ n_n Super super busy la~ new work, new environment, just everything is new. Also say goodbye to the old me in 2007. The unhappy memories & the old attitude. I was talking abt taking break & taking break. Started to really take action and take break this year la. Enough of Mr. E, Mr. F, Mr. V, Mr. Mike, Mr. J, Mr. H. No more Mr. la...When I look at lovers all ard, I realized I don't want to be with anyone that's not exactly good for me. They all taught me a lot & let me understand myself to another level. Thanks them for this. But it reached a point where love seems to be too heavy for me to bear~ That's why my break begins in 2008.

Feb: Bday 2008. Thank you everyone. Thankful I am not drunk this year~

March: Been very very busy~ Working 7 days a week. Mostly at IFC I. If fairly tale have princess trap in a tower, then in reality Alice in trap in IFC 1... haha. This is my sole conclusion from 7 days working la~ Only big things happened in this month is
(1) My brother, Alan & best friend, Bun's birthday~

(2) My best friend frm U, Cindy's wedding,

when I knew Cindy is getting marry, I kept on thinking what will happen if I stayed with Angus. How our life will become? without breaking up... but I realized I cannot lived like the past 5 years. Cannot keep on pushing myself to accept & accept. Thus, suen la~ I made a right decision to move on. But I missed the sweet old time...

April: Final goodbye to Mike. Even thought everything fundamental seems so match and perfect, but wrong timing will always be wrong timing. Fate showed me what will happen if I am with a person with qualities that I am looking for. It actually made me realize what I want, might not give me the life I wanted. Be careful what I wished for. This final goodbye ended with a trip to TW without Mike. And yea~ I finally went to TW without him~ The whole trip was quit emanational. Too many flash backs. It is terrible. But I am glad I did went there myself and I enjoyed the time I had with Bun and his friends. Good that Bun is there...all along. But I finally understand how it felt for sis to go back to Osaka. It is the same feeling I stepped into Taipei.

May: Getting ready for STUDY~~ Wish me luck~ n_n

 

Dec 31: New Year Eve

Celerbated with my best party buddies on Matt's boat. It was great. The firwork is great and happy to count down with all of them this year~~ I still remember last year I was on the plane coming back to HK from TO... This is actually the first christmas I spent xmas with them~~ (^--^)